i havent even been blogging for a long time. so like, things have happened here & there. like nga going on my blog & taxing my poems ... ? i didnt even think she would READ my blog. anyways, ive changed out of geo & chem so thats all good, at least i'll pass most of my subjects :) im so cold atm ! was sports day today ; my first time going to one lol. it was alright but since i didnt do any event i just walked around & watched others & cheered. it got pretty boring so me & philong left back to his house :) nothing to really do these days.. so boring. going out is gay. that reminds me i just started to work at minh's place with her :) i dont like the boss but oh well, who can complain. im there for the money & thats it. i really need it. well im off to keep warm. so fucking cold --''

in english were learning bout poetry and i've recently been caught up on one of my old habits when i was younger & that was going thru beautiful poems. even though the ones that catch my heart arent written by famous poets but they are beautiful in my way lol.

We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.

When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.

It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

We love our parents,
our brothers and sisters,
our boyfriends and girlfriends,
our cats and dogs,
our comfortable shoes
and our baseball gloves.

Love
- It's a short word,
easy to spell,
difficult to defind,
impossible to live without.

rip - mj.

so holidays have beeen okay here & tehre so far. mostly boring. & my baby philong left to go sydney for 3days this morning which isnt okay :( i gotta admit even 3days is going to kill me.
so on wednesday me phil & bich went out ; it was pretty boring ayes. didnt know what to do but go around & round shopping & shit
on thursday i suprised philong by showing up at his house lol.
on friday took my sister out to see her friends while i went off with philong. we came back home & did ALOT of walking around here & tehre. but it was good since the suprise i found out was that he was leaving the nxt morning :( he tried his best to stay but he couldnt. his dad wouldnt let him :(
& here it is ; saturday & im home alone all bored. mum is coming back on thursday so thats good i guess. kinda miss her since living with dad is a certain kinda hell --''
nga's sister, annie, is holding her wedding a week from today. i hope we can attend, havent been to a wedding yet so hopefully.

oh & the sad news of michael jackson's death ; my opinion is that a time just before his death, there was a phase where everyone accused him of molesting & all these terrible things. the world forgot about him for awhile ; they didnt care. his fans would slowly lose the shine in there eyes as they see him, the people would slowly lose thier respect for him. All of a sudden, as it was all over the news that michael jackon, the king of pop, had passed away - everyone would freak & cry. then just like that - all of the respect, worship & sympathy that the king of pop once had, regained. I think that the only reason all this regained was because the people felt bad for once putting him down. but why does it matter now ? how does he know that hes respected to the world again when hes dead ? i admit that i had been making jokes about him when he was alive, till the day i found out bout his death i was so shocked. but no doubt as i know - & everyone else ; michael jackon was the best leading entertainer in the media industry, & will never be forgotten.

Rest In Peace - Micheal Jackson
.. long live the king of pop ..

transformers without the ending.

holidays are so boring boring boring boring. the only good bit is SLEEPING IN ! so went to watch transformers the other day & didnt even get to finish it ! had like the ending left ! probably 15mins left & friggin grumpy ass dad chucked a fuss & i had to leave the cinemas --'' but it was a good movie. the robots are so funny. & the megan fox is so hott ! shes so pretty. i wish i culd look like her lol. i wish i was fit like her too. and i wish i culd be in a movie with the main cutie in transformer twice !! anyways nothing to say ; stuck at home. was meant to be out today but philong had work, so changed it to tomoro. he took of work to see me =D yayy ! cant wait. anyways laters x

omg longgg time lol. i havent really been busy just net has been disappointing me & started to become BORING ! well its nearly holidays =D hope it goes all good. mums nearly back. shes rather annoying on the fone always reminding me the same shit over & over like i lost my memory every 2 seconds. dad is the worst thing lately. we've been arguing & it just doesnt stop. the best times we've had would be the silence in the car after the arguements & fights. oh wells. i kinda not like talking to my dad. even though sometimes RARELY we have our next to good moments. anyways, friends friends friends. they've been alright besides bich. im pretty worried about her, got a pretty big concern about her. but i think shes okay now. so school, lets mention my school grades. well im pretty happy with my maths B results, B+, A, B so B overall. Health was A-, C, C- oh i wasnt so happy about the drop from A to C but overall its a B so im pretty happy. English i got a C- !!! NOT SO HAPPPY ABOUT THAT HUH ! but oh well.. a pass is a pass. & chem.. E, E, D+ someone tell mr clarkson that the plus on the D does NOT make me feel any better lol. Geo ; well marks havent really came back from geo due to our assignment being dued on teh first week back from holidays, but the exam ahhas no need to say i failed taht one miserable.
i got a meeting with the guidance counsellor tomoro for subject change. im changing out of geo & chem ; my two worst failing miserably subjects. Chemistry is suicidal i tell you --'' i mean who the hell sits around to find out a weight of an atom ? yu cant even see the bloody thing !
anyways, hopefully catch up later xo

cant go anywhere but stay home & rest rest rest oh how boring == i felt sick & vomited afterwards & had stummy pains :( hopefully i get to go out to see philong & watch a movie with him. bichs party nxt week. mums leaving on wednesday :( & im going rainforest soon :D yayy. cant wait

2moros the day. this thing inside me will no long stay. i will be strong and let it go away. no matter waht happens i will stand tall and try my hardest not to fall. i will never forget thiss.. 18th of january ; i love you & dearly never forget :)