letting it go

i think im over it now, im going to stick with phil through this. In my mind now & then hieu diep pops up. oh godd i miss him so much =( its tragic. but we both know where its gona end again. & we both know whats best. he still likes me.. isnt that sweet ? hes so adoreable i must admit. we had a strong bond. I so dearly miss hieu. but phil is what i need now. phil makes me happy. i shuldnt take him for granted. i should appreciate. & i do.

I know you've probably experienced more hurt then i have ever in my life
cause ive heard your stories, and you can cope with so much, im different, its always been me getting broken up with, unless that person that i loved had pushed me away on purpose.
But when i left you, I chose to let go, I chose to not be with you or have you.
I regret it when im sitting here thinking of you and how you've moved on.
Seeing you close to someone else isn't easy, obviously.
But yeah, if i keep it all in then i wont cause such hassle to you.
Just to let you move on & live your life.