ahhhh assignments finally all donee ! i havent been blogging lately cos of school work & cos i cant be fcked and have better things to do then yeahh.. this lol. its currently 12:47am and currently really cold lols. i was txting philong & put the fone on silent but then got so caught up with my english i forgot about the txt >< & he fell asleep :( and now that im finished i wana talk to himm.
how can my love for a boy be so great ? its ridiculous how much i find myself in love with him. when i wake up i immediately check my phone just incase i've missed a msg. When i fall asleep his the last person i say goodnight too. and without his goodnight my mind is not convinced. When im asked to go out its always him i bring along. When im cold its his teeshirt i put on. When i eat a pie i find myself placing the tomato sauce in his initials. my love for philong is great. i would never find this kind of happiness with another guy. there are different types of happiness. & the one im feeling is different kinds mixed in one. Its more of a safe feeling. I feel safe with him. Usually when i date someone i would feel insecure about their ex's and friends. But with him its different. I know he cherishes me more then he did to his ex. & even though his girl friends are flirts, i dont mind really. because i know that he would never do anything to hurt me. his & her break up was over something stupid i guess. but no matter how stupid it is ; its worth it. cos hes mine now. i cant believe i was about to give him up. how stupid of me. he was what i wanted. but now he is what i need. & is what i got :) i will always stand by him holding his hand and heart in mine. Its stupid how ppl say ; if theyre happy i am too. cos thats truly a lie.

Philong i am now yours ; & i want to be always.
& even though only time will tell ; with you,
I can feel as if im standing next to forever in my heart ;)